[ it doesn't stop being awkward, not when he still feels stiff and out of his depth, still captivated by the light in nazuna's smile, his motions tender, softer, drying his tears - it didn't matter whether they were happy tears or not, the last thing shu wanted to do was to make nazuna cry.
there's a lot of things that he wants to say, really, but it doesn't stop him from feeling like his heart is still stuck in his throat even when he does a pretty good job (in his opinion, obviously) of not letting himself get too affected when he folds back the handkerchief so that he can hold it loosely in his palm once he lets go of nazuna's chin.
because it's more than just a confession, not when shu has been in love with nazuna for the longest time. not when shu still feels lingering traces of bitter regret when nazuna smiles - bitter regret that he's crossed the line one too many times, that he had not listened, that valkyrie could have been salvaged and he could have proven that nazuna was meant to stand with him at the peak.
to be honest, this still feels like a dream.
especially when he hears nazuna's response, and it takes him a moment to actually register it, and shu does what any reasonable eighteen-year-old would do when their crush says they like you back. ]
I. Of course, I-- I don't mind waiting, I'll wait for you until the end of time, even, Nito--
[ ok, maybe not so reasonable. that was definitely a case of open mouth, insert foot. ]
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there's a lot of things that he wants to say, really, but it doesn't stop him from feeling like his heart is still stuck in his throat even when he does a pretty good job (in his opinion, obviously) of not letting himself get too affected when he folds back the handkerchief so that he can hold it loosely in his palm once he lets go of nazuna's chin.
because it's more than just a confession, not when shu has been in love with nazuna for the longest time. not when shu still feels lingering traces of bitter regret when nazuna smiles - bitter regret that he's crossed the line one too many times, that he had not listened, that valkyrie could have been salvaged and he could have proven that nazuna was meant to stand with him at the peak.
to be honest, this still feels like a dream.
especially when he hears nazuna's response, and it takes him a moment to actually register it, and shu does what any reasonable eighteen-year-old would do when their crush says they like you back. ]
I. Of course, I-- I don't mind waiting, I'll wait for you until the end of time, even, Nito--
[ ok, maybe not so reasonable. that was definitely a case of open mouth, insert foot. ]